I remember when I believed in dreams
When the milky waves meant a lot to me
When I learnt to make wishes like a fairy; eyes closed
And open my eyes to see my dreams come true
I remember when life was of cream and peaches
I remember all my dreams of running far away
Of not looking back to care how little I was
Of not minding the light weight of my fat pocket
And not making a huge mountain out of no shelter
Of waking up to see the true face of love
I remember when I vowed the vow with him
And walked the long walk with Him
And danced the cultural dance in the rain
And sang the melodious song in the dark storm
I remember with tears all the good times with him
I remember when twenty seemed so far away
Looking back, time tells me it was yesterday
I have lost a lot with the passing of time
If I were to be blessed with a second chance
I’d go back to five and start where it all began
I remember when my light shone so bright
Basking in excitement amidst the crème de la crème
I remember when my light went so dim
Wallowing in depression and creeping in holes
I remember I was told that such is life
I remember when I sought to fill up the void
Against all the false hopes that life gave me
When I blindly walked through a new door
Hoping to put together the scattered puzzles
I remember when I had no bearing on life’s map
And I finally remember when I truly found Him
When my life’s true love revealed Himself to me
And walked towards me when I only took a step
I remember when I left behind me, the empty past
When at last I became the ‘me’ I am today
© WARDAH ABBAS 2014
{And Allah wants to lighten for you [your difficulties]; and mankind was created weak.}
The Qur’an, Surah An-Nisaa’ (the women) 4:28
Wardah Abbas is a twenty-something year old self-proclaimed eco–Muslimah based in Nigeria. She is a state attorney and a passionate writer who particularly loves to share lessons from her personal experiences. When Wardah is not writing, volunteering at an event, or hanging out with friends, she can be found at the kitchen table whipping up edible ingredients into skin beauty regimens. She is the Earth Care staff writer for Young Muslimah Magazine. Catch up with her on therosespen.wordpress.com.
Subhan Allah. The journey into young adulthood is sooo hard. Jazaki Allahu lkhairan for this vulnerable piece, Wardah Abbas. May Allah SWT reward and guide you ameen.
So melancholy and deeply imbued with fearless self examination. Lovely MaShaAllah.