Daddy I Can’t Wait To See You

You were the one that protected me no matter what,

You would never even think of leaving me to rot.

Whereas all these people don’t think twice,

They all pretence about being nice!!!!

Everyone is here, not like you were though,

It’s on and off, more like a show.

I wish you were here with me too,

This is why Daddy, I can’t wait to see you.

I thank you for all the knowledge and wisdom we got,

I know this will keep me off the streets, selling that pot.

Wish you could see me grow and progress,

Just remember I’m still your baby girl, nothing less.

We had our fair share of arguments, disagreements, fights,

But thanks to you, we always knew our wrongs from rights.

You were a father and loved us too,

This is why Daddy, I can’t wait to see you.

You were ill; a few things came out of the blue,

That damn hospital is crap, we should sue.

They took you from me, your kids, your wife,

When you were with us, you actually had a life.

But then I think, what would that achieve,

No matter what, you were destined to leave.

You had a special place upstairs, and Allah called you,

This is why Daddy, I can’t wait to see you.

You had pneumonia, cancer, a collapsed lung, 2 strokes and infections,

It was confusing as you kept changing wards and sections.

We saw you good and bad-you fell and rose again,

I lost count of the times you rose, definitely more than ten.

I have to admit I was proud of you, till now I say mashallah,

Just wish I could have done more, like prayed a lot more salah.

We all prayed, some more than others, for you,

This is why Daddy, I can’t wait to see you.

You left with a bit of a struggle and so much more,

They should have investigated it to the core.

I hated you because on the second of May, you stole from me,

You took a big part, I will never be able to see.

That day felt like the end of the world,

I laughed but secretly I could have hurled.

I was smiling for show, crying in the loo,

This is why Daddy, I can’t wait to see you.

The days went by like years,

Everyone cried, and I was there to wipe tears.

I wanted to cry as much as they did,

Instead I laughed and joked like an innocent kid.

I was looked at funny and told to cry,

I said I was fine, and started to believe this lie.

I should have cried but wanted to be strong like you too,

This is why Daddy, I can’t wait to see you.

Days went by, people came and went,

Yet, I always wondered around, in need of your scent.

I couldn’t sleep on your bed or in your room,

I was stuck in darkness, a circle of gloom.

When I finally came around to realising you’re not on holiday,

It was way gone over the month of May.

Till this day, I’m scared to think of you too,

This is why Daddy, I can’t wait to see you.

I get lost in my own world for quite some time,

This is how I got started on this rhyme.

I will always miss your presence,

This is probably why my life is so tense.

I always believe you will come back,

But this is something my mind tends to lack.

So just remember you are always in my heart too,

This is why Daddy, I can’t wait to see you….

{Our Lord, indeed we have heard a caller calling to faith, [saying], ‘Believe in your Lord,’ and we have believed. Our Lord, so forgive us our sins and remove from us our misdeeds and cause us to die with the righteous.}

The Qur’an, Surah Ali-Imraan (chapter of the family of Imran) 3:193

This is the second of a series insha’Allah of three poems by Humera Amir.

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